I’m not really sure when things got so crazy. I mean, I try to set an example and be a forward facing instrument for what God wants me to do. To be that example for others and show that you can be a Christian and not be a crazy fanatic. I am human and I do make mistakes. Only God knows all my dirty little secrets and it’s him I need to ask to be forgiven. I find it amusing that I have been called out recently on a certain issue. Even with no evidence, a handful of people have approached me about the situation. I said my peace about it and moved on.
I don’t need to justify myself to anyone. These people say they were my friends but did they ever call me on my birthday? Did they even have my contact information or want to get together and hang out? Being an acquaintance with someone is not being their friend. When you try to make plans and they don’t show, or call and they never call back, it’s time to move on. Life is too short to waste it on fair weather friends. But I guess that is something you learn as you grow up. Having been in the military and a military wife, I moved a lot and made a lot of friends. Friends I haven’t seen in years, but still call to touch base or ask how I’m doing. People I can confide in and people who can confide in me. Some of those people moved on with their lives and I never heard from them again. Yet others end up showing their true colors when times get rough.
I guess what I am getting at is, I should have handled things differently when a certain person approached me about the situation. I immediately got defensive because my family was brought into the issue. For that I do apologize, so to that person who talked to me on Facebook and then blocked me, I am very sorry that you are going through this. I’m sorry I didn’t say that to begin with. I should have been more supportive instead of thinking about myself in this situation. I hope you read this someday and we can move forward with things, or at least talk about them. I’m not going to call out names or give more fuel to this fire. I would like people to stop the witch hunt and stop blaming people based on idle gossip and rumors. I encourage you to not point fingers at someone based on their word alone. Even in a court of law are innocent until proven guilty, so why can’t everyone else be held to this standard. Put away your pitch forks and be a positive force in this world.
In light of all this, I would like to start something with a friend of mine. We have already talked about it and I’m hoping we can actually do this. I think it would be great for the industry and really beneficial for the people who want to be professional or setting examples for others. It’s been something I’ve wanted to do for a while now so hopefully it can happen.
Anyways, I have been volunteering my time with sof studios and helping out with digital marketing all the while looking for a paying gig. Ive started focusing on the positive things in my life and moving forward. I’m tired of looking back at things. I have learned to let things go and forgive past wrongs. It doesn’t mean I have forgotten or that I have turned into a welcome mat. I have had to cut people out of my life and even take a course of action in a certain situation. Wether that decision is just or not, I can go to bed knowing I did what I had to do. People shouldn’t take advantage of others and think there is no repercussion for their actions. I am not a judge or jury to anyone, but that does not mean I cannot fight for my family or have their back when they are being treated unfairly or taken advantage of. I have seen it happen to others so many times and things need to change. So, we will see what happens. I do know that people have been very supportive of our decision to move forward and are behind us 100%. To have someone else validate your issue and help you move forward is almost justice in itself.
With that, I end my rant for the day.